THIS IS ME AT 17....

Trying on versions of myself like outfits that never quite fit..

THE ALGORITHM COULDN’T FIND ME — SO I MADE THIS

I don’t know if it’s just me, or if being 17 in 2025 is some kind of existential crisis in slow motion. The age which is so not mainstream worthy, the age which is hardly seen, hardly noticed like it does not even exist…but it’s there.

One minute i’m scrolling through reels of people “ Romanticising life”, and the next moment i’m wondering if I even have a personality outside of my Pinterest board. It’s like who am I really and who did the algorithm make me become?

This space, this blog — Lost in the Algorithm — is me trying to answer that.

You're beautiful -- don't let the world make you forget that.

I’m a little poetic soul—still not quite a poet. Just someone trying to find herself in a world that teaches us the art to perform, but the art of being. I live in a world where everyone is slowly turning into the same person. Where kids post about healing and growth, but can’t handle a real conversation, and call themselves mature— yet act like texting first is a desperate cry for help..

It is confusing, noisy, and sometimes lonely

I’ve always felt like floating somewhere — between aesthetics and anxiety, between my thoughts and the internet chaos — like i’m scrolling through life more than living it.

Messy hair, mellow soul, making sense of it all...

I’m not here to teach you anything. I’m not a therapist (yet) or a fashion expert or some enlightened version of myself yet. 🎀 I’m just a girl 🎀 with a cluttered mind, a closet full of emotional outfits and way too many Notes app entries that starts with “I don’t know what i’m feeling but…”

I’m just 17. I am a walking contradiction of wanting to be seen but terrified of being misunderstood. Some days I know who I am — like I could take over the world. Other days I scroll for hours and forget what I even liked before everyone else told me what’s cool.

This blog isn’t some big expert take. It is just another corner of the internet, where I figure things out as I grow as a human being and document them. I’m not here to preach; i’m here to process.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re too influenced to know what is really you — this space is for you. You are welcome to a quiet rebellion— a journey of discovering who we truly are in a world that tells us who to be.. IT IS MESSY. IT IS REAL. IT IS GENZ AS HELL… WELCOME TO MY BRAIN, IN WORDS.

2. THE KIND OF SPACE I’M BUILDING

I’m building a space for the people who feel too much, think more deeply, and often feel out of place in a world that rewards surface - level - everything. If you are into raw thoughts, Lame jokes, Poetic rants, Late night psychological spirals, fashion as a form of expression, and the quiet chaos of being young— this is for you.! <3

You feel a lot, which means sometimes you are gonna hurt a lot. But it also means that you are going to live a life that is emotionally rich and really beautiful- Dr. Ryan (Never have I ever)

3. WHAT YOU’LL BE READING HERE—

This is a safe and relatable space for the one’s who don’t see sensitivity as a weakness, who believe that true beauty comes from within, who are ready to embark on the journey of knowing who they are, in the society which expects us to already be “done”

YOU’LL FIND:

• Personal essays from the lens of a 17 year old navigating identity, fashion and mental spirals

• Psychology inspired reflections

• Raw thoughts on social media, beauty standards, self worth, and trying to stay soft and humble

• Life stories that feel like diary entries — vulnerable, unfiltered and deeply human

• A little rebellion against the algorithm, one post at a time.

I WILL BE POSTING EACH WEEK OR WOULD AT LEAST TRY TO

(since i’m still learning and getting to know about substack)

SUBCRIPTIONS INFO:

Everything is FREE for now— I just want to build something real first. Eventually there will be paid tiers with deeper posts, entries , behind - the - scenes thoughts and maybe audio letters. But for now, just read, feel, and vibe with me.✌🏻

4. LET’S GROW TOGETHER

I know it is going to be crazy, but i’ll keep you guys posted with my life drama, to make the journey — our journey— through the chaos, to the core:)))

Somewhere between girlhood and becoming, I found a softer kind of truth.

5. Before you guys leave…

I just wanna say, If any of this made you feel something — stay. Let’s grow together PLUS Subscribing costs zero, but means the world to me..so.. stick around? 👉🏻👈🏻

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